Monday morning. Lipstick, dirty hair. Reading articles about books
I already love and want to return to disguised as another woman.
Glowy gray winter sky glinting off the car parked outside, giant
spools of electric cord hidden behind. Christmas songs on the radio,
the rape-y ones (“I really can’t stay” “But baby it’s cold outside”)
interspersed with the others. Yellow coffee cup with one cold sip
remaining and the impending refill. Holiday cards taped to the wall
in a collage of those who love us for our purchasing patterns. Ten AM
on the winter solstice and the postal service workers are hustling
to make it in time for Christmas. I’ve been wearing this blue shirtdress
for three days and it’s time for a wash. All astrological signs pointed
to career success this month but where’s the proof. Holiday treats
thrust at me from everywhere; I accept. Flip my greasy hair
to the other side of my head; I let it lie where it lands.