California
I can live so happily
here in Vermont
all I have to do
is not think
about figs
I can live so happily
here in Vermont
all I have to do
is not think
about figs
I am making plum jam and it smells divine
because of that vanilla bean steeping in it
grown by an orchid in another county’s humidity
Misha is outside snipping grapes off the vine
to bring to his parents
because we can’t make all the jam
It’s sunny now after a day of bluster and greys
and there’s a catbird screeching near the chickens
and the rooster’s screeching back at her
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been injured
because it would sound unimpressive
and I like to impress people with quantities
Multiplication has never come easy to me
not even after years of memorization
I wish numbers were something I could intuit like moods
Being an adult means being able to eat an entire box of macaroni & cheese
And I can do that
But only every once and a while
Perhaps I’m still not quite fully grown
That would be really great news for me
Because I check my upper back daily for wings
On the day when I finally grow my wings
I will act as nonchalant as a teenager
And fly away for a daytrip but return home at dusk
Because dusk is the best part about autumn
And the best part about summer too
And the best part about right this minute
So I’m off to enjoy this current set of minutes
Because as you know they are already flying away from me
At a pace that not even the wingful can achieve
In which I spend time with superb ladies, learn about “nature names,” drink beer for dinner, watch the last nub of sun hit a land I may someday live on, stare into the red red eyes of a rabbit, play with chicks with good hairstyles, sleep three to a bed, wake up just past dawn to milk a cow and a goat for the first time, drink muchly-creamed coffee, eat purple potatoes for every meal, meet three stout sheep…and enjoy myself outrageously.
(All photos taken by me at Kate & Nick’s beautifulheavenlyanimalfilled farm.)
A San Diego friend emailed me this poem this week. How did she know this was the week I was missing peaches so badly? Also missing Annie of Sweet Tree Farms, the best & coolest fruit farmer in the Whole World. We do have a couple of peach trees on the property, but no fruits yet. Although there are huge, bodacious raspberries blooming. Also blueberries. And plums! So there is really nothing for me to complain about. But ooh. The joy of eating a peach. While standing over the sink. The juice dripping down my chin. And looking out the window as I bite. And taking the pit in my fingers. And throwing it outside. Just in case. It wants to grow. Into a peach tree of its own.
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Only one insect has feasted here,
a clear stub of resin
plugs the scar. And the hollow
where the steam was severed
shines with juice.
The fur still silvered
like a caul. Even
in the next minute
the hairs will darken,
turn more golden in my palm.
Heavier, this flesh,
than you would imagine
like the sudden
weight of a newborn.
Oh what a marriage
of citron and blush!
It could be a planet
reflected through a hall
of mirrors. Or
what a swan becomes
when a fairy shoots it
from the sky at dawn.
At the beginning of the world,
when the first dense pith
was ravished and the stars
were not yet lustrous
coins fallen from the
pockets of night,
who could have dreamed
this would be curried
from the chaos.
Scent of morning and sugar,
bruise and hunger.
Silent, swollen, clefted life,
remnant always remaking itself
out of that first flaming ripeness.
Last year I met garlic scapes
and I loved them on impact
and incorrectly called them snapes
for almost a year. Then I learned
their name and learned their twisting
goose-necked beauty and cut them
thinly into dishes. Now they grow
in rows outside our kitchen
and they grow in rows at the farm
where I work in the kitchen
and they’re filling the crisper drawer
and they’re all over our salads
and they’re harvested in baskets
and they’re not a food to sustain a nation
or even a main meal ingredient
but they’re one of our first little harvests
and for that I am grateful.
(Photo by my partner & co-farmer & longtime love Misha, whose blog is titled Microcosmic DreamSCAPES. Coincidence? I think yes.)
(For more of Misha’s farm photos, click here.)
(We are Free Verse Farm!)
Bacon
is the reward we get
for cooking
ourselves bacon.
What does the sun taste like?
An egg yolk.
What does the moon taste like?
Soda bread.
What do the stars taste like?
Salt and pepper.